Dont cry because it's over , smile because it happened .
Time : 11:45 PM
221o2oo9 Once a person made a wrong step , nothing can be changed anymore . Yes i know smoking is bad , & because of some reasons , i'm trying to quit lehrs . I'm smoking lesser & lesser lehrs . Today , after slacking with joey ; tecksoon ; shermaine & jiasheng , i went home . My mother asked me , :did you smoke ?" I dont wish to make her angry so i said no . But she knew i smoke . & she say i'm still very bad . I'm the only daughter , yet the one that make her disappoint the most . & she told me this .. "aiya , suan le lahs . Li hun suan lehrs . Ben lai wo xiang dai yi liang ge zou , ke shi bu yong le . Quan bu dou mei you yong . Ni men zi ji kan zhe ban ." Upon saying all those words , i began to tear . If , i really with my father , i really cant imagine what will happen to me . & i dont dare to think about it too . Hais . I really dont know what to do lehrs . All this happening things have been troubling me & making me moodless to study now . My friends in school also asked me why i looked so listless nowadays , even my teacher . But what can i do ? I tried not to think about it , i tried to take it as nothing has happened . I really tried . Making myself smile as hard as i could , but it wasnt from the bottom of my heart . I really dont know what to do . My head hurts , my heart hurts . No one in my family cares . My elder brother in NS , my younger brother is too young to know anything , my mother giving up this family & my father is hopeless . How ? No one can save this family anymore i guess . Really gone case lehrs . Hais ..
