School today is damn boring lahs .

Got presentation . & i only have 5mins to look at my slides . -.-

& i was like fucking nervous lahs ! -.-

Plus i sick siol , than felt like gonna faint . HAHAS !

After 4 days without food , i finally ate my 1st meal this afternoon !

But i didn't finish it . Cause too full . -.-

Lols . Hais . Am i faking a smile infront of everyone ?

Or am i smiling from the bottom of my heart ?

Hahahs ... Been thinking alot these few days ..

I remember how we really know each other .
Although i know who you are for about 1 year ,
we didn't really talk to each other .
I know who you are because of jae kor ,
once dote me alot ,
asked you to look after me when i'm at bunk .
The day we really know each other is the day i kena caught by HSA .
If i never remember wrongly , the date is 24/10/09 .
After i kena caught , i felt very vexed .
Cause i scared of my mother .
You are the one who console me .
& you suggest to go to ecp .
First , we went to cathay there wait your uncle come .
Cause he need your help in moving the refrigerator .
There's 3 people in the van when the rest are moving the fridge,
me , your ahma & dardar .
I talk to your ahma & stuff .
& thats how i know you real name . Laughs ..
After that went to hougang central fetch my laupo & we go ecp tgt .
But xiaospark didn't go cause he got probation .
Altogether at ecp got ..
Joey.l ; ahbi (your husband) ; siokhui ; dardar ; you & me .
I remember you this irritating one ,
keep talk about ghost thing . -.-
I say dont say lehrs but you all keep say say say .
You that day let me try a beer that's quite nice .
Dont have the bitter bitter smell .
Its more expensive than the normal beer .
Hahas . But i cant remember whats that beer name . -.-
& thats also the day we're scared of fries .
Cause got the monopoly event at mac .
Than dardar keep ask from people stickers .
& we keep get free fries .
& bo bian , we played scissors paper stone .
Lose de have to eat . Hahas . That was fun .
I also remember you say i macham baby like that .
What also need you feed . Hahas .
Oh yahs , the eeyore in army clothes that i like .
You tried to catch it for me . But you failed .
Hahas , thanks for that .
On 25/10/09 ,
i went to cube & find you .
you're playing backshot if i never remember wrongly .
After that went to smoke all that .
We slacked at there also .
After that i need to go work at pasir ris .
& after awhile , you have to book in .
Next meeting is on 30/10/09 ,
I waited for you at jurong east station .
Your mother & ahma also there .
Went to eat tgt at jurong east de coffee shop .
Thats the first time you hold my hand .
After that , you went to toilet to change to own clothes .
& off we go to jurong point to meet joey.l they all .
& the place we stead is at jp2 1st floor .
I say " dont hold hand , we not stead . "
You replied " Ok lor , [grab my hand] we now stead . time is 2107 . Must remember . "
Thats how we are together .
Think back , its kinda funny but cute .
Somethings i couldn't remember .
I remember this ..
On 07/11/09 ,
I accompany you to bugis to buy phone .
Cause you want sign line as your prepaid keep no money .
Than cant contact .
So you went to sign line .
You also wanted to buy the same phone as me .
But too bad , there no stock .
So you bought yuri .
& they got give you 2 Michael jackson movie tickets ,
1 Michael jackson poster & 1 zouk out ticket .
You gave me that poster .
After that we went to park lane & find your friends .
& ahdi keep take my poster & play . D:
I also got to know a cute girl call felicia .
After staying awhile at parklane ,
we went to cathay to watch Michael jackson movie .
Thats the first time we watched movie together .
Happy moments flies pass quickly ,
& we started to quarrel & quarrel .
I cant accept what you want me to accept ,
You cant accept what i want you to accept .
You dont understand me at all .
I still remember , the last time we met is on 09/01/10 .
We say hao watch movie together .
But joey.l & ahbi still haven't come .
When i met you at red line de control station ,
You keep walk fast fast & throw me at the back .
You dont bother anything .
& keep give me those fcuk face .
But i didn't grumble anything .
& we went to play l4d2 to pass time , played the touch screen game .
& finally , joey arrive dhoby .
Than we went to parklane played l4d2 again while waiting for ahbi .
After ahbi came , we went to watch movie together .
& thats the last movie we watched ,
Alvin & the chipmunks 2 .
After that movie day , we quarreled & quarreled .
I posted in fb saying that ..
"After saying so much , everything is back to square . Everything went down to the drain . I tired of it already . I give up ."
You replied in fb ..
"wat can i say? after everything is back to square everyting went down the drain but... im still here for you! tired alrdy? so fast neh.... so fast give up neh.... dun give up narh im still here for you... later zombie come bite you ah xD so dun give up ^^ muacks x33"
I was happy , but whats the point of saying all these ?
Quarrels still exists . Unhappiness still exists .
I'm really speechless .
After we broke , i tried hard not to reply your sms .
But you keep sms me ! My heart hurts , i wanna reply you !
But , think again , whats the use ?
You only want what you want .
Without it = no love ?
I dont fcuking understand it at all .
Yahs , maybe its my fault to end up like this .
Its my fault that i cant accept .
My ill fate . Whatever it is ,
Just my fault , you're perfectly correct .
Is that what you think ?
If it is , than so be it .
No point for me to explain & voicing out my thoughts .
Because , everything will be back to square one .
Now , since we're only friends ,
all i can say is do take care of yourself .
Dont let people who care for you down .
Spare a thought for other people bahs .
Hope you'll find a better one that does not require you to wait for anything ,
& willing to accept what you want her to accept bahs .
All the best ..

Everything started from 30/10/09 ,
& ended on 11/01/10 .

Time : 11:42 AM